The term self is very popular:
“You must develop a strong identity and personality. You must practice self-care and validate your feelings. You must foster self-respect and self-esteem and self-confidence. You must discover your inner self. And always remember you are unique, just like everybody else.”
Self has become closely associated with the idea of spirituality. It is ever so important. But self is a fleshly word. A complacent word. An independent word. A prideful word. In reality self is the least spiritual part of a person. The idea of self has no room for God; it is a travesty of what our wellspring should be. We were made to be vessels to contain God; not to contain more of ourselves. “And he is before all things, and by him all things consist.” (Colossians 1:17) He did not create us to live apart from Him. “Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.” (John 15:4) Without God as our source we are incapable of doing good. “For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.” (Romans 7:18) “For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world.” (1 John 2:16) The solution to our incompetence is humility.
Humility is the absence of self. It is the realization that God did not need us– He wanted us. It is the realization that we are but specks of dust. When we take the stance of humility, that is when God will fully manifest His power and goodness within us.
Sacrilege is severe expression meaning disrespect of something considered sacred.
By “self sacrilege” I mean that the opinion of self is too high and the opinion of humility is too low and thus everyday I must take up my ax and hack down the thicket of pride that grows within me. Everyday, several times a day, I must check myself and ask for strength to deny the lusts of my carnal flesh– whether they be anger, irritation, bitterness, estrangement, slothfulness, deception, forgetfulness, and impure thoughts. Everyday I must commit sacrilege to the part of me that thinks it is more important than God. Everyday I must fight.
“For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men, teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world; looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ; who gave himself for us, that he might redeem us from all iniquity, and purify unto himself a peculiar people, zealous of good works. These things speak, and exhort, and rebuke with all authority. Let no man despise thee.” (Titus 2:11-15)
(I also write novels while I’m fighting. They will be finished soon.)