Dear Moriah

Dear Moriah,

If you could have waited one day

One day

Perhaps you’d still be here
Perhaps we could have grown together
Faced things together
Been afraid together
And been brave together

I don’t mean to assume responsibility

Or to take undue blame

Or believe in the possibility
that I could have saved you
Like a hero

Because in the end

The very end

It seemed like your decision
To do what you did

But maybe it wasn’t

Maybe it was just the last act of a very desperate person

Or

Maybe it was
The decision of the desperation
Not of the desperate person

I was coming

Coming

I was coming to see you
And if you could have waited one day

It might not have been like this

If you could have waited

But you couldn’t

And I understand

Love, Sarah